The Story Behind
I TRUST YOU JESUS
"I Trust You Jesus" is a song born out of personal experiences that trace back to my childhood. I grew up in an environment filled with fear and insecurity. Anxiety was a constant presence in my home from a very young age. My father battled daily with overwhelming fears that often spiraled into relentless nervous cycles. Most of our conversations revolved around anxiety, illness, death, and pain. As a child, I absorbed all of it, to the point where I began to fight the same battles he faced.
My father’s greatest fear was contracting a terminal illness that would bring immense suffering. One day, his fear became a reality when he was diagnosed with leukemia, a highly aggressive cancer. With little hope, the doctors told him it was unlikely he would survive. I had to face this disease alongside him—through chemotherapy sessions, doctor’s appointments, tears, pain, and more fear and anxiety. Eventually, the day came when my father passed away, and his greatest fear came to pass.
It’s a tragic story, but it’s also real. Living through this experience firsthand only magnified my own fears and anxiety. This is the backdrop that gave birth to "I Trust You Jesus."
In 2024, many years after my father’s passing and after overcoming significant battles with anxiety, I traveled with my wife and two daughters from Boston to North Carolina for a work trip. I decided to turn it into a family journey. Before leaving home, I mapped out the route and noticed that on the way back, we would need to cross one of the longest bridge-tunnels in the United States—the Chesapeake Bay Bridge-Tunnel. While fascinating, the thought of crossing it made me uneasy, as I’ve always been afraid of heights. I knew this would be a challenge. The bridge stretches far into the sea, and at certain points, you’re completely surrounded by water.
The night before we were scheduled to cross the bridge, I was overwhelmed by anxiety. I prayed earnestly, asking God to give me the strength to face this fear. Being with my family added to the pressure—I didn’t want to fail them, nor did I want to show them the kind of fear my father had shown me.
The morning of the trip, we began our journey toward the bridge. I felt surprisingly calm—until we arrived. The moment I was on the bridge, fear took over like never before. It was one of the most terrifying moments of my life. I felt on the verge of fainting, something I had never experienced before. My vision blurred, my body was drenched in sweat, my face went pale, and my heart raced as if it would stop. My wife, seeing my condition, began to encourage me with words of faith, reminding me that God was with us.
In my mind, I couldn’t stop imagining the worst. But then, in the midst of my fear, the Holy Spirit spoke to me: "You are not alone; I am with you. I know how this feels—I’ve been there." At that moment, the name Jesus came to my mind, and I thought about His experience in Gethsemane before the crucifixion. His fear was so great that He sweated drops of blood. The path ahead of Him was unimaginably difficult.
As I reflected on this, I told myself, "Jesus, You understand me, and I trust that You are with me. What I’m facing doesn’t compare to what You endured. Give me the same strength You had to face Your fear and pain." From that moment, courage filled my heart, and time seemed to move faster. Before I knew it, we had crossed the bridge.
When we reached the other side, I picked up my guitar and began writing a song I hadn’t planned to write. The words flowed naturally, inspired by everything God had revealed to me through my struggles with fear and anxiety.
Life is hard—I know that all too well. But in Jesus, we trust. He walked among us, bearing the weight of the world’s sin and enduring unimaginable pain. He understands us, and He is always with us. He has never failed, and He never will.
This is the story of "I Trust You Jesus." May it encourage you to trust Him, no matter what fears or challenges you face.
